Can you just stop breathing and fall off the face of this earth, you low life piece of lower class shit
Don’t say I’m better off dead, cuz heaven’s full and hell won’t have me. Won’t you make some room in your bed? Well, you could lock me up in your heart, and throw away the key. Won’t you take me out of my head? I’m just a would’ve been, could’ve been, should’ve been, never was and never ever will be.
They told me to just give up, you’ll never be good enough
Today I just feel like an empty vessel. Yesterday I was surrounded by friends who came to my birthday which is interesting because I didn’t think anyone would come really..but thats besides the point. So I was surrounded by people whether they care about me or not It didn’t matter. Part of me just feels like it’s missing. Regardless of how I have everything I want and how much fun I have I still feel empty like a vessel with nothing to live for. Does not having a girlfriend let alone talking to someone who doesn’t seem to be interested ruin me that badly? Like I have friends have things to do but I don’t care. I take it for granted. All I want is someone to care about me, to like/ eventually love me for who I am. But I can’t even catch the attention for the people I strive to impress. I feel like i’m always apart of the background regardless of where im at. Regardless of what I do I never seem to impress. I feel like i’ll never impress those I want to impress because I’m to simple i dont have certain qualities. Maybe someday i’ll break this cycle of trial and error of never finding a girl who would want to date me. But right now I feel like im stuck. I’m so fucking lonely.. and nobody even realizes/cares how fucking lonely I am. Everyone I reach out to just doesn’t seem to realize im reaching out to fill a void.. a void i’ve had for almost a year now. I wish I didnt wear my heart on my sleeve I wish I didn’t have feelings. I wish I could drown my feelings but I cant even do that as they’ve learned to swim.